Youth…

My fingers were typing very fast. I couldn’t keep the pace of my mind’s deep thoughts trying to get imprinted on this notepad…not knowing that I have failed to keep track of all my thoughts ….I didn’t want to miss a single moment to decode my thoughts in reality. The pressure was too much in my mind and I was falling back in my emotions,…..I could hear the cries and laughter at the same time. The same terrible cries as if I was blindfolded and pushed down from a high-rise without an opportunity to fly again!!!!
I been a part of her all my life and I couldn’t bear a single thing which could destroy my bond with her. We may not have been physically together but her essence has been a great driving force till now…I was trying to give every moment out of my life which could keep her happy, just for a fraction of a second I wanted to feel her laugh…full of life, full of freshness. I was forcing my fingers to write whatever I was feeling but my mind was translating whatever she was feeling and this all destroyed my serenity and I couldn’t keep my self balanced, and it resulted in a shattered state of mind ….I outburst in anger and sorrow and she couldn’t gather her courage to fight back with me …to fight back her originality….herself!!!!!